and right out the other

(Cage the Elephant)

Oh, it's been awhile since we had a good confessions session, huh?

- A few things have been buzzing around my brain recently. B mentioned his tendency for multiple personalities when we spoke. (There's confession one right there.) And it got me to thinking. I am someone that has a dark current. I am in a little rough around the edges, but I think I do a pretty fine job of hiding it a lot of the time. I am naturally attracted to other people that are a little rough around the edges. Even if that just means that I like tattoos and facial hair.

- I play lots of things pretty close to my heart. I'm pretty open about a lot of things mostly because I feel defiant- like, you will not shame me for being who I am or doing what I want. But when it comes to how I think or feel about something, I'm realizing more and more that I'm just not usually comfortable sharing.

- My new job is with an organization that has a faith-based background. It doesn't really have much to do with the work I do, but it is a unique job environment. And it's made me really question how I feel about certain things and why I feel that way. I hope that I am able to raise children that have more faith in all things, even the everyday, than I do. Having faith in anything doesn't come naturally to me.

- I knew this before, but it has never been more true from the process of planning a wedding. Everyone has an opinion about your decisions. How much money you spend, how much you don't spend, what you spend it on, where you honeymoon, what music you play, etc etc. It's true in life, too. And I think I have finally realized that I am never going to be able to please everyone else all of the time. That I have to do what's right for me, regardless of what anyone else wants to think about it or say about it. But that's easier said than done.