when things start splitting at the seams, and now... the whole thing's tumbling down

(Band of Horses)

I wrote this a few days ago and apparently never posted it.

I am actually up at 5:15 this morning. J had the early shift at work and I couldn't go back to sleep. I find it really hard to sleep without him now. I've watched too much "Law and Order". So, I went ahead and got up, thinking that I could have a not completely hectic morning. But, of course, when you get up early, you get involved in 50 things at once and then you end up not starting your regular morning stuff until later than normal.

Also, it's only Tuesday and I've already found this week really stressful. My direct supervisor is gone for a week long trip. I came in yesterday and found out that I've been writing down call numbers on the title pages of books incorrectly AND that I haven't been formatting cutter numbers without an author properly. I mean, I have been doing it "properly" but every library sort of does it a little differently and apparently, I misunderstood what was wanted. So, I had to go gather up all of the books I've done (200+ titles), check them for mistakes, and fix them. Totally mortifying.

Oh! And they told me last week that I can't have more than 30 hours a week or they have to reclassify me as full time, and the library isn't authorized for another full time employee... so a. I have no idea if this collections management business will be a permanent addition to my job or not, b. I have no idea if they are suggesting that I can take over a 16 hour position and do it in just 6 hours a week, and c. that makes it pretty apparent that when I need a full time job I have to look elsewhere, huh? I feel really bad complaining about this because I know that I'm so lucky to have found a part-time paid position in my field when I'm still in school and they are willing to teach me, which is really nice- they're even paying for me to go to this conference in December. 


And most of the time, when I'm actually here, at my desk, working, I'm fine. It's just a very different environment from what I'm used to and I'm already tired of it being made so apparent that I'm not only the new kid on the block, but also the lowest man on the totem pole. This note: "Barcodes: Can they be placed approximately the same please?" Is sort of my point.

In general though? Life is good. I can't believe it's already the end of October. Particularly because the high here today is 91. It's supposed to "cool off" towards the end of the week, meaning highs of 80 and 81. I'm heading to DC in two weeks to spend some quality time with Z and I am really looking forward to wearing a scarf outside. Since the only place I've been wearing one lately is in my office. (Yes, seriously.) Fall has been epically busy. Between school, work, other work, wedding planning, traveling, and being quite the social butterfly... I have been totally swamped. Which is probably why I went to bed at 9:30 last night. Still, I have a few things planned before October slips away this week-end: Disney on Friday, a trip home on Saturday to belatedly celebrate my Mom's Birthday, and then a Haunted Swamp tour on Saturday night. Sunday is going to be full of homework. Hopefully I'll be able to sneak a long walk with Sam in there...

I can't believe November is almost here!