remind me that we'll always have each other, when everything else is gone

(Incubus)

Oy, you guys. I think the past few months are finally catching up to me. It seems like the more time I'm supposed to have free, the more and more I just want to sleep. I can't ever remember being this tired before. I came home from work yesterday, sat down on the couch, and around 6:30 turned to J and said, "I'm totally ready for bed already." Eek. So not normal. And for the past week, I've been averaging between 8-12 hours a night. Besides kind of having a cold though, I feel fine. Just unbelievably tired.

And sleeping so much? It sort of makes me feel blue. Not really depressed, just kind of mopey. It doesn't help that I totally loathe winter. Even in Florida. I love fall, but once the thermostat shows that it's below 60 outside, I'm already ready for summer again. And I know it's Christmas, and there are lots of people here, and lights, and music, and presents and that's all quite lovely and all.

I just feel like there are so many things that I need to do still and it just never stops. And the basics- going to work, buying groceries, going to the gym... are just totally draining me right now.

Needless to say, the tired and the blues don't make for the best blog fodder. I have my New Year's Resolutions and if I look back at 2010, I can honestly say it was such a better year than the one before or even the one before that. I'm totally looking forward to 2011 (holy crap, 2011) and I have so so much that I want to say... there is wedding planning, friends that won't grow the eff up, a new job search starting in March (I am finally joining the real world in May and I need something full time), trips and visits and some new features that I want to do and really, life life life.

But, first, I really need to learn when to say when. And I need a nap. Today is my last day of work until the 3rd and I am going to thoroughly enjoy my days off. I don't know when I'll be back. It could be tomorrow, it could be next week, it might not be until the week after that. Let's just hope that whenever it is, I come back feeling rested and refreshed and ready.