I got you in my pocket for when I get home

(Born Ruffians)

ONE MONTH TO GO UNTIL OUR WEDDING. Holy shit. I so can't believe that we've hit this point. The past six months have really just flown by. Left on my to do list? Put together the programs and favors. Have my make-up and hair trials. Go to my final dress fitting. Wait for the flowers to arrive and then put those together. Finalize the ceremony details. Have my walk-through with our day of coordinator. Get our marriage license. (Holy crap.) You know... details mostly.

I honestly can't believe the amount of details and hand-picked stuff I've been able to pull together for the wedding. I know a lot of people won't even notice most of it, but I'm excited to show the pictures to people and be able to say- oh, I went shopping with my Mom at antique stores for all those cake plates, or my Dad put the twine on all 150 mason jars for us. Luckily, we have photographers that are really amazing and I know will be able to capture every detail.

After the wedding, I'll have to do a post about where I got everything. Etsy has been my biggest resource- from a custom made stamp for our wedding favors to a special hanger for my dress (it says sara <3 juan). I have custom cake toppers, a ring bearer box, tutus for the flower girls, bird cages for cards, party poms, a photobooth backdrop, etc etc etc. And it's all hanging out in my closet, garage and brain. Our honeymoon is booked, our rehearsal dinner invites have been sent out, and our rsvps are due back tomorrow. The past 16 months of planning and debating and building are finally coming together at the end of the month. Actually, after the wedding I really need to make time to sit and write about it all because I largely haven't. It's been such a big part of my time and my life. It's been sometimes frustrating, sometimes thrilling, sometimes really fun, and other times a total freaking hassle, but more than anything when I look back on the past year and a (almost) half, I just feel profoundly lucky.

I should have written about the most amazing bridal shower and bachelorette party that were thrown for me two months ago because more than anything else they really demonstrate how overwhelmingly loved I've felt throughout this whole process. Every detail was perfect and it was so evident how much time and care Alicia and the bridesmaids had put into every detail, but more than that, I was surrounded by so many people that loved me. They were all happy and talking and it was perfection. In the middle of the tea, I looked around and had a vision of what my wedding might be like. And then, later, in the middle of a zebra striped hummer limo, toasting champagne, I felt it again. Like, exactly where I should be. Start to finish, the whole day, both events were totally perfect. I teared up during everyone's speeches at the bridal shower, was overwhelmed by Juan's family and their generosity, drank too much champagne, had heart to hearts with everyone there, sat on the floor whilst dancing at iBar, force-fed Rachel ice, and made Melissa buy me a shot of Patron and then promptly dumped it on the floor.

On the one hand, I can't wait to be married. I can't wait to get this show on the road and walk down that aisle to Juan and really truly start our lives together. I can't wait to dance and see everyone and go on this honeymoon which is really turning into an epic food tour of San Francisco. I can't wait to talk about other things! (I've gotten so boring.) And at the same time, while it's often been frustrating and never-ending and stressful, I have really loved being engaged. It's been one of the few times in my life where everything has fallen into place exactly the way I've always hoped it would. I'm really hopeful that our wedding, in approximately 30 short days, will go exactly the same way.


First though? My best friend's bridal shower and bachelorette party are this Saturday and I can't wait to help her celebrate!